daily writing. 27 mar

i ask wahyu about my depression. he told me to write. yes, i stopped writing. it's too corny. i'll start again, hopefully it'll make me better. my husband won't know about this. because my writing will make him sad. he always thought that he will never make me happy. it's not about him, please. it's me, miserable.

what happen today?

i'm listening to 'ledakan di langit' i hope i dont write too much keywords here, so u cannot find me.

that stupid ega always tell me something to do. always! :((((
she told me that i sud ask the boss something.
i know! I AM BORED TO DEATH TOO HERE
BUT I DONT WANT TO DO WHAT U SAY, EITHER
EXCUSE, I'M ENJOYING MY LIFE
IS A HARD THING TO DO, BUT PLEASE DONT MAKE IT HARDER :(((((((

i tweet this one:
remember that never told smart people things to do? cos if it's clever enough,they've already done that,& they have reasons why they didn't

i want to crack my head open, and scream 'fuck u, i hate u'

and i see people gossiping, EVERYWHERE, in twitter, in the office
emang harus tau gosip ya biar ngehits bgt
i dont like gossip/ngomongin/ngatain orang
tp fakta bahwa itu membuat gw kuper, itu membuat gw sedih
social life gw = 0
EMANG KENAPA SIH?
EMANG HARUS PEDULI YA SAMA ORG LAIN????

GUA GA PEDULIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII


AAAAAAAAAAARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :'(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

so, i'm selfish? i'm doing something wrong?
please :(((((
i see more people doing something wrong, and it's fine
i'm tired to always do something right

i dont even know which one right or wrong :(